Monthly Archives: September 2014

Wow. So inactive.



Gah. Inactivity sucks. I always end up having really good ideas for a post and stuff to write, but the moment I get home my inner procrastinator is like:WHOOSH NOPENOPENOPENOPE NO DOING STUFF FOR YOU TV IS JUST TOO IMPORTANT SO SIT ON THE SOFA FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS, KAY?

Not kay. I’m also getting really annoyed with myself about Titch’s blog because I haven’t done anything in months but I don’t know what to write. So any help on that would be nice.

In the meantime, I’ve been reading more Black Butler, which is awesome as ever, and I noticed something about me and fictional characters. I go for the ones that practically nobody goes for. Sebastian? Nope.



I have a guy that sends fangirls screaming staring up at me from a page. But NO. OBVIOUSLY Snake is better. I don’t know why I like the weird ones, but it’s a pattern that has gone on for many years.

Fang? Psh. Iggy, obviously.

Will? Nope, Jem.

Tobias/Four? Uriah is a lot less grouchy.

Finn? Nuuuuuu he’s a cheat and Jasper is cuteeeer…

Marco? Marco is sorta boring. Bailey is more nicerer.

For the record, I prefer Peeta to Gale. But Finnick.

Okay, you can’t blame me for the last one. But this has been a pattern that has gone on since I was a kid. And I don’t particularly fancy any of these guys, but when it comes down to who I like more I just go for weirder ones.


Not doing songs today. Songs are stressful. However if it makes anyone feel any better, “American Idiot” was at number one fore Kerrang’s top 50 albums of 2000 onward.(catchy title, I know.) “The Black Parade” was second.

So go and listen to those. Both of them, the whole way through. They are my two favourite albums of all time, and it made me smile to see them appreciated.

Bai den.


Something about my religion and stuff.



Not in a happy mood today. I ended it with Keys because I was sick and tired of trying to be what she wanted me to be. I’ll never be goth, I’ll never be emo, and I’ll never be able to live up to her expectations. I’ve never been in a relationship before, but I imagine that this is what a breakup feels like. Lots of tears,lots of horrible flashbacks, lots of constant reminders of a friendship that still existed a day ago, lots of anger.


When I was talking to one of the girls in my school, we talked about religion, and I told her I was pagan. And then she was all “No way me too wow awesome” and I was like “YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS” because I’ve never met other pagans my age before and I forgot Keys for a bit and was really happy.

I’ve been thinking for a while about what other people portray paganism to be since I saw a very chavvy girl wearing a pentagram necklace. Now of course, she could have also been pagan, but most people see a pentacle as being a sign of satan. I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE THIS CAME FROM IF ANYONE DOES THEN COMMENTS WOULD BE APPRECIATED BECAUSE SERIOUSLY, WTF???

For anyone that doesn’t know, a pentacle looks like this:

This is mainly associated with Wicca, a branch of paganism. The five points represent earth, air, fire, water, and spirit. It’s actually used in a lot of religions, so why it’s meant to represent evil, idk.

Paganism is really just a general term, and there are many sub branches, Wicca being quite a well known one. the general idea of it is having an affinity with nature, and I like to think that I take in many different elements from different branches, as some pagans will do.

I grew up in a pagan family. My parents are both pagan, and it’s always been sort of normal to do the rituals, buy the crystals, and incorporate it into my daily life. I used to think that being pagan was wrong when I was little, and try to hide it, but now I’ve realised that hiding it makes it seem shameful, which it isn’t. The school nerd now wears eye-liner and rainbows, so believing in something a little different shouldn’t really surprise people.

Whelp, I was in a bit of a reflective mood today, and this is obviously what comes out when I’m feeling reflective. And so the moral of the story is: Don’t try and hide who you are. Especially if it’s just to please others. I know it sounds cheesy, but it’s true. And if you like to judge people, take a good hard look in the mirror. You might be surprised at the similarities.


I can’t think of two. This one has just felt like the most relatable song I’ve heard in a long time. One of the lines was actually something I kept muttering under my breath to force myself to end it with Keys. Here’s Numb by Linkin Park.

Wow sleepovers are underrated



So I have just gotten back from my first sleepover which wasn’t really a sleepover as I couldn’t get to sleep.

Was it because we were playing “twoof or dair”? No. It was because I was squished up in an air-bed next to a dresser that squeaked whenever I tried to move so I stayed in pretty much the same position the whole night because I didn’t want to wake the others up and feel bad. It was only when Keys’ cat Tigger came in and took over my pillow that I decided there was no point trying to sleep.

He woke the others up five minutes later anyway.

I had brought some Tim Burton films over because me and Keys thought that it would be really good to make it into some sort of movie-night. They all loved “Edward Scissorhands” because who doesn’t, but when we got onto “Dark Shadows” they all got out their phones and started going on Instagram and Facebook and talking about people I don’t even know and bands I don’t even like and I felt sorta out of the loop because I don’t like most social media because it steals you identity and sells it and is EEEEEEVIIIIIIIIIIIL. I only really g on this site because it feels nice to know that people are listening but not in a really sappy way because I have friends and family that listen but you all know what I mean. Or maybe you don’t. Or maybe you do I don’t know any more this is me with no sleep I usually sleep quite a lot and now I am using no grammar and my mind is wandering off because it does that oops there goes my punctuation.

I’m not sure if I’ve told you about Keys. She is my best friend who reads fanfiction obsessively and introduced me to mcr and bvb and we just fangirl about everything when we’re together and we write songs and also stories ’cause why not. It’s an unlikely friendship between an emo and a hippy/scene/nerd (Idk what I am and I am fine with that) but somehow it works and neither of us question it.


I’m listening to the “Dark Shadows” soundtrack right now because I love it, especially the first song. This is “Nights in White Satin” by the Moody Blues :

And here is another one bacause why not.

Once again, I apologise for the bad grammar.