Pretty much what it says in the title. I know I’ve been inactive, mostly because so much stuff has been going on in my life I haven’t had time to post much.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about myself. Trying to go deep and find out what actually makes me tick, all that sort of stuff. I’ve got myself a group of friends I can regularly hang out with; we see each other in school each day, they all share the same passion for music that I do, and we all sort of look after each other like a family. I’ve known these guys for a long time, but it’s only really just dawned on me that they’ve been around from the start. I also recently came out as bi, which I had been denying for some time. But it’s out there now, and to be honest? It feels like this huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I feel like I can be more open with people. Since hanging out with these guys, I don’t get as depressed or nervous as I used to. And my music career? The album I did backing for is due to be released, and I did my first paying gig at a festival a few weeks ago. Everything is on the up.
As for Keys? I’m cool with it. I honestly don’t feel upset or mad or sad thinking about her anymore. She’s got her life, and I’ve got mine. I’m quite happy that we keep it that way, and I think she is too.
Basically what I’m trying to say is that I don’t feel like I need this blog anymore. It used to be a place where I could just vent, but I don’t really need one of those now. There isn’t anything to vent about.
In short: I’ve grown up. I know it may not seem like I invested much time in this whole thing, but it really has meant a lot to me. I haven’t gained that many followers or that many friends on this website, but that isn’t the point. Writing in this blog was a release, and I feel like everything that I needed to talk about at the time has become pretty much irrelevant to me now.
I don’t class myself as anything now. I’m not an emo. Nor am I a hippie or a goth. I’m just happy with who I am, and grateful that I don’t need to label myself to feel like I belong.
I guess if I ever got desperately sad or lonely, I’d write another post here. But until then? I’m done.
So here is my last song. It’s what inspired me to let go of everything. It’s from a film called “Hunky Dory” and was originally done by The Who. Love Reign O’er Me:
Until we meet again?